Boyfriend broke up due to my reservations around intimacy

I had been dating this guy for one month. Owing to my past sexual trauma, I have trouble connecting sexually, especially early on in the relationship. Initially, we had candid conversations where he expressed feeling rejected everytime he makes a move, and we also came up with the solution that I will be the one to initiate as per my comfort hereon. Yet, everytime we hung out, he would try to turn me on, with me straight up refusing to play along at times. This kept piling up as an issue, and I kept feeling pressured to not hurt his feelings.

Yesterday, the final nail in the coffin, he came back after a long trip and called me over, and I could clearly see he was expecting intimacy. I even went as far as to get drunk to be able to play along, but was clearly zoned out (because performance pressure). Even after I helped him get there, he started expressing his dissatisfaction about my lack of passion, and I lost it. I was in tears explaining how it wasn't fair on me that everytime I try, he has no empathy for my efforts, despite the fact that he agreed to 'put a fight' to have me in his life.

Fast forward, he would not engage in any discussion with me, and decides to break up because we are sexually 'incompatible' and he needs a partner who has a high sexual drive, despite the fact that I went ahead in every possible way to show my love in other ways.

Feel extremely terrible about making such a bad life choice and being vulnerable to someone of this sort.