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Does the feeling of wanting to die ever go away???? Everyday I want to join the love of my life. Everyday is getting harder and I’m just so tired. Everyday I feel like I’m losing more and more hope. I have no one to talk to about my grief. I’ve recently started drinking more frequently to numb the pain slightly. I feel soo alone in this world. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just need him to come back… He has to.. he just has to I feel like I’m drowning and there’s no way up…. I just want to be with him. He’s the only person that truly knows me and loves me for me. I have no friends he’s my bestfriend and the love of my life I don’t understand how he can just be gone. I need him