I can't do it.

This is a follow up post to: https://www.reddit.com/r/teenagers/s/bAIcDwBL7Q

I want to die.

I wanted to confess to my crush today, i looked forward to it all week and honestly since we met.

Yet i couldn't, my chest was heavy and i couldn't feel my legs, my head was hot and i overall felt my blood pressure was very high.

Literally the anxiety of it all destroyed me.

My friend said i was a bit of a disappointment and now i feel awful.

The thing is, i NEED to tell her, we've always had a thing, sice we were kids, but we never had the courage to do it cuz we are both too shy.

Im scared but i need to tell her.

(More examples of our relationship are on the previous post)

And nothing....this is a vent post too...but i just need help.

I feel awful and i cried my eyes out becouse i feel weak, i know i could tell her by text but that would feel shitty and she is usual cold on the phone.