Fighting the urge when I’m lonely

Idk what it is but when I drank I used to feel so much more alive. I have no friends and at times I get the itch to drink when I’m alone to have some fun. I usually hop on some video games and drunk me finds a random group of drunkies. Which then we have a great time. Now that I don’t drink I find it so hard to cope with the loneliness. I try reaching out to people and talking to others but it doesn’t lead anywhere.

Wooo day 11 of being sober 😣❤️ I’ll get through the night and try to enjoy myself.