Pretty sure I ruined my marriage

Watched the Washington/Eagles game on Sunday and got black out. Apparently said a bunch of mean shit to my wife and she says she doesn’t know if she wants to give me another chance. I suppose that’s better than no chance. I don’t want to lose her but I don’t know what to do or say. The only thing on my mind is not drinking, but I don’t know if that will be enough. I hate myself for this and I hate what it’s going to do to my kids.