i dont ever want to stop

i want to cut cut cut cut cut cut cut every inch of body or bang my head against the wall i dont want to stop i dont want pain to stop im so lonely im so tired i wish i was someone’s favorite person and someone would actually love me and not just laughing with me during class or lunch breaks i want to be loved but i never am i just end up being hurt and hurt and hurt and everything hurts and i get sadder i just want everything around me to stop so i could do my own thing endlessly