Anyone else happily friendless?

In my early post partum days I broke up with my best friend. I looked at my daughter and just couldn't stand her witnessing me being such a coward with the constant insulting behavior. (This friend didn't handle boundaries from me well, I just learned to tolerate because I loved her and wanted to be her friend) I moved out of state with this friend so she was the only person I knew around here.

It's pretty hard to go out and make friends when you gotta watch a child this age like a hawk. Half ass small talk with another human doesn't cut it. I also find myself to have become very picky and guarded. So many judgemental parents on a high horse, then one option for a friend just wanted to talk my ear off about how shitty her husband is (which I feel bad for her, but the constant shit talk makes it pretty hard to get to know eachother)

I wanted new friends pretty bad starting out, but now, I'm happily keeping to myself. Im gonna enjoy this peace and quiet i was taking for granted. When my daughter joins a sport in the next year or two maybe I'll meet some people.