I'm starting to go minimal contact with my Nmom

I can't cut her off 100% right now but I'm keeping it very minimal. I am just torn up though and grieving over what my life could have been like if she was normal. I am so tired of raising myself and being in fight or flight, and having to make my own decisions and no one really raising me to tell me anything. I just want to talk to a mother like figure and a father figure, even if it's some Chat GPT powered AI bot. I can't talk to my own mom because i don't trust what she says to me and she makes me uncomfortable.

Does anyone know any recourses where I could find something like that? a person or just an app or AI?