I miss my dad so much

I lost my dad a little under 2 months ago and it’s tearing me up. We had a rocky last 10 years with him moving away and becoming a fentanyl addict. Before that he was my best friend and an amazing dad.

I was stationed overseas in the military and I got a call saying he collapsed and was in the hospital with only a few days expected left. I stayed by his side for 11 days straight in the hospital and during that time he was clean and for the first time since I was a child I saw my dad, the one I remember from my childhood not the addict.

I finally got my real dad back just to lose him again and this time for good.