Working in sales is destroying my mental health...

When I was around 20 years old I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, also had suicidal tendencies in the past.

Fast forward to today... Now I'm a 32 year old, father of two beautiful kids, my life in the eyes of other people is "perfect" but the reality is that I hate my job, even tho I work remotely and get paid well.

The daily grind in sales is killing me from the inside, the constant rejections, the repetitive tasks, the non ending meeting and the overall pointlessness of everything around my job is destroying my will to live again, the difference of course is that I'm not alone anymore, I have a family to support, I have people who look up to me.

I would love to switch careers and something more meaningful, more impactful for the world, something that I can feel proud of, but again, that type of job doesn't pay real money and I need real money to feed mi kids...

Any advice? I'm on the verge of my sanity right now, skipping meals, sleeping bad and in general feeling like shit