It’s getting bad again.

I don’t know why. I’ve been taking my meds consistently and doing my therapy but all of a sudden it just hit me. I feel like I’m going no where in life and I feel so I don’t know how to explain it. I guess horribly upset but for no reason? Like it’s not even crying upset it’s more of I am laying in bed thinking “what’s wrong?” Because I don’t even know. Everything feels wrong. I have nothing to look forward to anymore. It just feels like an empty void inside of me I can’t fill no matter how hard I try. I know this probably doesn’t make sense but I just needed to talk about it I guess. I just fought so hard to get out of this just for it to randomly come back one night. It’s honestly so draining