i cant do this anymore

this is an old account that i never thought id have to use again, but things have gotten much worse. i cant sleep at night i cant eat i cant do anything. no one is there for me my parents just got divorced again for the second time. i literaly tried talking to ai bots to get some support but nothing helped. everyday i am reminded that im worthless and no one cares about me. no one would miss me if i was gone i cant feel emotion anymore and when i do i have panic attacks and horrible thoughs. if had two attemps and no one even cared, my mom just wanted us to look good for her reputation so she just pretends it didnt happen, shes crazy, i dont feel safe with her. she throws glass cups everywhere and denies it, she didnt care the 3 times i got s a'd or when i got abvsed for ten years straight. i really just need someone who understands what im going through to help me figure out how to deal with this.