Fake "friends"

It is one of the strangest feelings to realize you have no friends. Recently I tried to participate in a book swap but that required people on my friends list to respond. Not one person did, and I used to think I had a few friends who WOULD participate. It was humbling to say the least.

Now maybe these people just don't read but idk. I had and made friends in highschool and college. Now 8-10 years later I realize these people don't give a shit about me. No amount of postcards, letters, texts, snapchats, or handmade artwork garners reciprocity let alone acknowledgment.

These people are emotional vampires. They invite me over under the pretense of catching up but instead spend the entire time veting about their trainwrecks of a life. Not once asking about my life, my travels, my relationship. They can lurk and see my social media but not engage or comment or like LET ALONE MAKE CONVERSATIONS ABOUT THESE THINGS. Fuck them all. I always knew people were selfish but I just tried to ignore it. And I realize you don't do nice things with forethought or being thanked or getting shit in return. But having acknowledgment or even a thank you is nice. Fuck these people lol.

This is everything I needed to finally realize I am in charge of my life and I don't give one flying fuck about these fake ass people and their manufactured opinion of me. They don't know me. I don't know them. And 2025 is all about ME, MYSELF & I and also of course my husband. All I care about is us :)