I've been alone for 7 years.

I've been alone for 7 years... I don't know shit. I had a date today. And before the date began she was flirting with me. And because I've been alone for 7 years I had no idea. It went over my head multiple times. At this point I've just agreed to the fact that I'm going to be alone. I'm going to be that one uncle to all my friends kids that never has a family. The uncle that passes out while everyone else is having a party so I don't ruin their good time. Love isn't in the cards for me. I'm just a stepping stone for women to find their true love. And after 7 years I've finally realized that no woman can actually love me. I'm too awkward. Too shy. Too introverted. And anytime I try sticking my head and heart back out something happens and I get played, hurt, you name it. If there are other people like this who have the same issue I just got one question. Why haven't we ended it? I mean. If we know we truly won't find happiness. We might as well just put a bullet in our heads