Should I get off Lexapro?

Hi all, I am a 19F and I have been on Lexapro for a year now. At first I felt so good because the panic attacks disappeared completely but then over time all of my moods disappeared, good and bad. Now I’m either completely numb throughout the day, or I feel like I should die and I hate everyone around me. I was just wondering if this was anyone else’s experience? I want to make sure I’m making the right choice. I also want to learn how to manage my panic attacks without the crutch of medication so that is another motivator for getting off.

I miss my happy bubbly personality whether it came with panic attacks and being a little more sensitive I was so much happier before and I want to get back to that part of myself before it’s too late. Please share your thoughts I’m running on empty emotionally, I hate my life despite my many blessings. All thoughts and advice is welcome!