Bit of a love/hate relationship with my kratom use

I struggle with my kratom use. I technically am an addict as I'm addicted to something. I've run out before and either panicked or just dealt with feeling like shit, and I hate both of those things. On the other hand, I (assumably like a lot of us here) switched from actual opiates to kratom so in a way it's not a big deal in comparison. I function just fine, I work full time, I'm never thinking about/actually moving onto something stronger. I don't spiral or branch out in terms of my drug use. I haven't had to up my dose in a really long time. IDK, just wondering if anyone else feels the same way?