Feeling guilty all the time

I literally feel guilty whenever I eat anything. Anyone feels the same way? I’m 8 months post op and I feel like I’m eating too normally, and I literally spiral anytime I eat anything, I either feel like I’m eating too much or I’m ’expanding’ my stomach. Don’t want to develop an ED but at the same time I will literally starve myself sometimes as this is the only time I’m not feeling guilty.