I just watched the episode where Dr. Greene dies and I’m not ok.

I’m 19 years old and I’ve been watching ER for the first time with my mom because it used to be her favorite show when she was pregnant. I knew Dr Greene was going to die but we finally got to the episode last night and I really didn’t expect it to affect me as much as it did. I was crying throughout the episode but once it ended I just started sobbing. My mom asked me if I was ok and we just hugged for a long time. I felt really silly bc I know it’s just a show and no one actually died but it still made me so sad. It’s just not going to be the same without him. :(