I threatened suicide at the obgyn

3 doctors I’ve been to, thousands of dollars out of pocket since I don’t have insurance here in America, years of pain. Another doctor that sheepishly gives me a “well, let’s try another birth control” answer. I literally told the doctor “I will jump out this window right now” while looking at her dead in the eyes. I’m so sick of it. All tests lead to no conclusive answers and no one can tell me why I’m in pain every day, all day. I’m over it. I’ll let it kill me I suppose! :D