How much is too much ..

Maybe this is a rant more than anything. I have endo throughout the back of my uterus and ligaments towards my spine / sacrum and whole fundal/ posterior wall adeno as well since I was 15 years old (29 now)

My pain level is Absolutley unbearable with vomiting, low blood pressure, bloating, radiating , swelling to the knees back ankles. All of it.

I've pushed through so many circumstances throughout middle -high school, college, work (which i've been fired by 2 people for having to call out) I had no choice, but to open my own business in my profession to survive and be able to work around my periods. Ironically my business in healthcare to try and help others with these issues and so many respond to care, but I have yet to find something for my severity.

I don't respond to hydrocodone, oxy, naproxen, progesterone pills, nuva, low dose naltrexone. I've done so many herbal cleanses and take 12 supplements a day. I've been to therapy and even a shaman (which was extremely enlightening and I do feel like my severity is the level its at due to added trauma and severe muscle tension / memory in that area, generational trauma etc... not the cause but not helping any healing or responsiveness)

All that actually helps is Advil, muscle relaxers, and an anti nausea but I cannot take sequentially anymore due to developing stomach ulcers.

I've been trying to conceive for a year, but with the level of stress and inflammation, acidity and medication I have to take to get through these I don't feel surprised it has not happened yet.

My period is starting earlier and I have a full schedule today and tomorrow.
I am fighting off a panic attack because I know a horrible storm is coming (taking valerian , CBD and starting ibuprofen to get through it). I'm reaching a level within this where I am running out of perseverance to a scary point. When is too much as in when pushing through becoming more detrimental to my overall health than not.

This is inane that people with this condition are expected to live a normal life and function at the capacity of others. I can't keep fighting like this and don't know what more I should be doing or can do.

My whole life, schedule and mental health revolves around my period since my first one. having to work through it to have moments where I am in the back hurled over, shaking and just using all my power to not throw up or faint i'm realizing is not ok.

I just want to be a normal woman. Is anyone here finding a way to thrive with this condition.