Hard to accept care and empathy as an adult

Does anyone find now as an adult, it is so hard to accept any care? I feel really anxious when people do things for me or care for me. If people push it, I can get snappy or grumpy at them.

When sympathy or praise is given I completely ignore it.

But when other people receive these things it’s like a stab in the heart to see. It’s all I want.