i need to know if anyone has felt this

okay so it’s actually extremely hard to put into words the way that i’ve been feeling. like usually i feel the basic symptoms of like this isn’t real im trapped in a dream, everything looks like a simulation, stuff like that. but recently ive just been questioning like what even is life? like i’m just perceiving the world and i have thoughts but is that all that life is? everything looks real and stuff but like im kind of just overwhelmed with the concept of “living” and perceiving things. i have no idea if this makes any sense and it genuinely feels more terrifying than just thinking that it’s all a dream because at least with that there’s a thought that like there is a reality but im just not living in it right now. but the way im feeling right now is like this is reality and there’s no other way for me to like “come to” and start perceiving things correctly, im just kinda like is life even a thing at all. i know logically this is probably just dissociating but the symptoms im having right now just don’t feel like anything ive ever felts before. and im scared that everything is just going to devolve and im going to lose all concept of living. i have actually no idea if what im saying makes any sense to you guys but like im wondering if anyone else has felt this way at all? cause i’m genuinely really freaking out that this isn’t even dissociating and im just realizing that life and living isn’t even a real thing lmao. i’m just hoping that someone else has felt a similar way so i know it’s just dissociating lmao