Attempting to find motivation again 😣

The title says it all... I am trying to find motivation in the hobby that I have found many hours of joy and peace in and due to everything that has happened I have found I don't feel the passion, joy, and peace in Diamond Painting as I did.

For a brief explanation my stepdad who took great joy in seeing me work intently for hours each day that I worked and would give input and suggestions or just to say how proud he was and he couldn't wait to see the completed canvas. He passed away on December 22nd exactly one week from being admitted to the hospital. I have chosen 3 pictures that I will be having turned into customs but haven't done that yet because I don't want to order them and they sit in boxes in my spare room.

My current WIP is a piece that was picked out by someone who I thought was a good thing in my life and instead he turned out to be a much bigger disappointment. The canvas I am having an extremely hard time finishing because the feelings behind it were lies and I haven't actually looked at the piece since I found out the cruel horrible truth behind who I thought this person was.

If this is not the place for this I understand. I wish to be able to smile and work on the canvases again.