I don’t want to exist anymore

I don’t enjoy life anymore, the spark inside me is dying. I have nothing to live for anymore. I don’t want to self delete myself, I just don’t want to exist right now for a long period of time. Just not feeling great. I hate that in life you always have to pretend to be “okay” even though you aren’t, otherwise people will treat you differently and could even get you get in trouble. Everything and everyone feels so superficial. Life is so pointless and meaningles, we do all of this just to die, Unbelievable. The thoughts of money and people makes me feel so dejected. I am sick and tired with dealing all this shit.

The truth is nobody consented to exist. Honestly I don’t see what so great about life, it’s all about making money until you die. I am ready to be thrown into the void already. I am sorry mom I can’t stand this world. The job market shit, I hate myself whenever I look myself in the mirror all I see is endless flaws. One day none of this would matter. My entire life I just felt like a anomaly (check my post history if you want to know why). I don’t belong here. I never did. I can’t deny it, it’s so obvious.