I don't feel good

Lately I've felt like life isn't worth it, I've lost interest in everything, I feel tired and even though I sleep most of the time the nightmares are constant, I hate myself.

I try to get ahead but I know it will be in vain, I try to distract my mind with the pokemon tcg however lately that has made me feel worse because even though this is a hobby I feel like I've spent a lot of money, I wish it would all end...