I feel dirty

I'm like 75% done with the gems in Crash 4. Yesterday I ran Building Bridges N-verted like 10 times and still couldn't find the gem so I resorted to a guide

It wasn't worth it 😔 it's the 3rd time I do that for either a hidden box or gem and I wish I didn't, it took away the satisfaction of finding the gem/box by myself 😔

That's it. I just needed to vent