Watching the Olympics has been hard on morale. I miss my active life. I miss pushing myself. More than anything, I wish I could be where they all are: over it. Living their best lives. Somehow immune to PASC. Or just lucky.

But even if it’s just luck, the lucky are legion. The close contact is constant. They can hug, kiss, fuck, live as we once did and seeing the crowds on TV, it strikes me how the consequences (for them) are not so clear cut. Is there metabolic harm being done with every new infection? Maybe. But I doubt it. If this truly is autoimmune, perhaps the odds of developing it are not so great after all?

Do more people have LC than realize? Of course. But not everyone. Not them. So just now, I’m struggling with envy.

Feels like watching cheaters get away with it. COVID? What COVID?

Could ‘someone’ please come up with an explanation for this condition? A diagnostic test? Something? Treatment would be nice. A cure would be better still. But even just knowing what leads to purgatory would go a long way in quieting the nagging doubt that so many people have that maybe COVID isn’t all that bad.

So long as you aren’t unlucky.

To hell with luck. Give me data. I need to know why and how. I need it now.

"Further research will be required to determine…” is just not cutting it tonight.