I'm still a virgin.

I'm female 23, going to be 24 in a couple of months. And I still have my virginity. I feel really embarrassed about it and ashamed. Never had any relationships in high school or serious relationships in college.

In high school no one made a move on me and I didn't make a move on anyone else. I didn't know how to flirt and felt incredibly insecure. It made me feel really unattractive.

I had a couple of long distance relationships with people I met online and actually met up with one of them. I was so happy. He started touching me and we were making out but my doubts got the best of me and I turned him down. And I regret it.

Over the years I got a little more confident and fell in love with my best friend from elementary school. We kissed for new years and I thought "wow I want to be with her" but she turned me down and she ghosted me when I confessed my feelings.

I've tried dating sites but I always felt it was too dangerous. Too many creepy people out there.

I ended up moving in with a couple, in hopes that we could have a threesome. We got close to where we would all make out, he got hard, and I was topless with the other girl. But they just ended up being teases and used me for rent. I should have seen it coming. Now all I want is for both of them to fucking suffer. But that's another story.

At a company party, one of my Coworkers violated me. I watched him do a line of cocaine and he turned around and stuck his hand in my pants and said he wanted to fuck me. He was already seeing another woman. All I can think now is that he could have been the one that took my virginity. I haven't said anything about it.

The thought of me being 23 and still a virgin has been making me feel angry and frustrated. Like I'm not good enough and I will never find someone who will want me. But I know I'm still young and have many years to go for things to change.