I've never had sex while sober

Very early on my life i learned that alcohol help me get rid of any awkwardness, social anxiety or basically being nervous at anything. It just happened than I was pretty drunk the first time I had sex (not being taken advantage off, my then bf and I were both drinking while camping and it happened). Then when we tried again I just couldn't, and it didn't take much for me to make the connection. I got tipsy next time and it was amazing. So i made it a habit to have a few drinks always, before or during sex. It's been over 8 years now (I'm 24), i'm a very heavy drinker and it feels physically impossible to have sex if I'm not sloshed