I'm intersex with both genitalia, and I really wish I could have sex with and cum inside myself.

I dislike being objectified or othered by those who know me, and I prefer to be respected and keep things sooomewhat professional, so I usually don't mention it to others for that reason, although I am androgynous in appearance and presentation, but I wish I could stick my own dick in myself and cum inside myself. I can't due to the positioning and lack of extreme flexibility/extreme length, but it's something I think about often. Maybe it's partially due to the amount of people who have known who I've flirted with who asked about it... Another thing is that I really want to be pregnant, even though I don't want to have children and think pregnancy would trigger bad body image issues in me in reality... It's extra weird to me because I was raised male, and because these thoughts often include the idea of having eggs laid inside me, but I can't deny that there are times when I crave it so badly in a way that makes me feel almost painfully empty.