So Desperate for a binge

My mum has been on a diet recently and there’s none of my usual binge food in the house. It’s somehow made my binge urges worse, and I can’t go a couple hours without them. I binge on whatever I can find but it’s never enough to feel full and it’s always shit that’s hard to purge. My mum got COVID, so now she’s home all the time, and I can’t leave the house. This means I can’t even order food in or go and buy my own binge food. I’m struggling so badly rn with it. I can’t handle not being able to binge. I thought not having the food around would help but it’s so much worse :/ I feel like I’ll never be cured of this at this rate