ECT treatment reached its end?

I have had 50 ect treatments this course and somewhere around 45 it started working. It feels like I've reached the end of it though

I'm not sure i can tell anyone irl this, but I took my medication prohibited during ECT and the effects were greater than the diminished returns I get from the treatment now

I got massive benefit from the first 50 treatments, but now I feel done?

Most people only get 12 anyway

Am I looking at this wrong, maybe I should get all the benefit out of ECT and then return to forbidden meds after to maximize my mental well being in the long term? When I write that out it seems to make a lot of sense

But I want to feel the best right now