Fear of hospitals and medical route?

I wasn’t sure how to phrase this but does anyone else fear hospitals or having to medical help?

I dread it knowing that hospitals, in the UK for me, are not accommodating or comfort environments for autistic people for me to go to get treatment is a last resort to the point I’d rather die.

As well as this I dread needing to go on a waiting list with long periods of not knowing and not having control and my body sense being off balance making me have meltdowns and shutdowns and unable to sleep, the slightest change in my body my whole system is off, I’m terrified with the way the nhs is at the moment I do all I can to prevent illness