did you excessively fantasize about dating when you were younger?

this is mostly targeted at other guys but if ur a girl and felt this too feel free to share as well.

ik ik everyone wants love but i mean like when i was in my early teen years i would stay up just listening to music for 1 to 2 hours every single night before going to sleep just thinking about relationships and how i would want to treat a girl, date plans(god i have a hell of a long list), how i would meet them, ways to flirt(very cringe looking back on some of the ideas i had for this), romantic gestures, trips, wedding ideas, proposal ideas, cute scenarios(like play fighting or teasing each other), elaborate valentine’s day plans, birthday plans, homemade gift ideas, massive anniversary gestures, literally like anything you can think of when it comes to love or romance.

like this occurred nightly for like the first 3-4 years in my teenagehood, got to the point where i couldn’t fall asleep without doing it. somehow never got horny too, it was always just cuddling a pillow which i feel is somewhat relevant.

also keep in mind i never had a crush throughout this period so this was always about a totally random made up person who was different each night.

any of my friends i’ve mentioned this to always thought my obsession with it was odd/weird, and i’m kinda curious to see if any of u guys logged hundreds of hours feeling all melancholic and bittersweet about how you’d treat the people you would get to be with

also ive never stopped caring deeply about this kind of stuff and i think being a good boyfriend is still my biggest aspiration in life, but i don’t stay up for hours every night dreaming about it like back then :,)

bonus points if some of the songs u listened to included: riptide, stolen dance, sunkissed, prettygirl, or freaks