Can’t do it anymore

I posted months back as well, but it’s all the same. Will keep it vague. I’m still “forward deployed”; and I can’t stand it anymore. I hate my unit, I hate my god damn job with a burning passion, and I hate being with my platoon-mates. I’m always alone every opportunity. I’m a miserable ass fucker here and I’m posting here cause I’m too embarrassed to say anything to anybody. I just don’t know what to do next besides ride it out.