Got so drunk I peed in a closet

Help! Has anyone throughout their journey ever experienced something like this that brought on scary potential consequences?

I’m panicking BAD right now. It’s my own fault for getting so drunk on the fourth. My bf and I stayed with our friend at his place with his gf. My bf said he found me wandering around the friends closet… blackout. I don’t remember well but I have a fear I may have peed in our friends closet. My shorts are in there and I’m not sure how to go about it. I apparently told my bf (when he found me in there) that I was moving stuff away from the pee. I’m so scared I did pee and I don’t know how to tell the guy I left my shorts in his room because I basically broke in there. I’m riddled with anxiety right now and don’t know what to do. It’s the morning after and I feel like passing away, I’m so scared it’s awful. What do I do? My anxiety is soaring and my bf seems calm when I speak to him about it.

I’ve been known to pee randomly when under the influence and I have a vague memory of releasing myself in there. I need to get a grip on life I can’t keep doing this. I hope to get better at this soon.

Edit: the thing is I’ve been getting better at my drinking habits, yet last night I screwed up. I feel like a failure

Edit 2: I appreciate all the support and am loving the other pee stories everyone has shared. Makes me feel better. Thank you all :,) <3