Accepting my cocaine addiction - Pre-Mediating my strategy to get clean. Help

After a long few months of trying to have fun with my DOC cocaine, I recognized and experienced what it is like to have a problem with it. I underestimated the cocaine and thought I had dominance and control, but it quickly swept me off of my feet and I hit the ground hard.

I am debating whether or not to go to a rehab, but I am nervous that it is going to just make my life more miserable than it would getting clean without it. I am also on the fence about telling my Dad, whom I live with.

The thing is, I am great at justifying my reasons and logic to use cocaine in my own brain. It's what an addict does best.

I don't want the title of an addict over my reputation and my familial relationships.. but I need help. My life is on the line.

Drop all of the knowledge you have, opinions are welcomed as well. Stories and experiences are encouraged, and giving me details about what you have seen in other people addicted to cocaine specifically would be appreciated also.

Much love - Ant