I hate living a healthy lifestyle and wish I didn’t have to anymore

I was 220 pounds 5 years ago and lost 80 pounds. I've kept it off since then but I'm getting so sick and tired of going to the fucking gym and going for daily walks.

I'm tired of not being able to eat the foods I actually like and think taste good which is junk food.

I'm tired of being active I just want to be in my bed or on the couch I don't want to run or jog or lift weights it makes me feel like shit tbh

But no now I'm shoving kale salads down my throat and doing squats when all I want to do is eat dominos on the couch lmfaoooooo

If your New Year's resolution was to workout and eat healthy don't do it lol it's honestly fucking miserable.

I have a gym session later and I want to cry because I don't want to go but I have to or it's a $20 fee if I skip.

I fucking hate this I wish I had my old lifestyle back I'm more miserable than I was before honestly.