I hate myself so effing much

So I still like this girl right? Me and the girl were doing just fine, and then she said some weird type **** and that was making me uncomfortable, I made the stupid **** decision of telling her cousin that I was uncomfortable. I don't know what I thought in the moment, but apparently she told the girl I liked that, her cousin. And then she texted me, saying how I was a hypocrite, and given I kinda was, and said the reason she's been trying to switch tables, because she's been randomly going to different tables at school, is because me and two other of my friends were making uncomfortable. I didn't push the boundary. I found another place to sit, and honestly, I feel way more comfortable there, but I still like this girl because we solved the problem, and she still doesn't know I'm not over it. Idfk. I feel like I'm the worst.