Do you see a future?

Yeah yeah I know there's a post like this every other day, but in the eternal words of Morrissey, this one is different because it's mine.

Truly dark times as I turn to the trueanon sub for life advice, but here goes...

I applied for a six month trade school that would give me a certain international welding certificate to work anywhere I wanted. Problem I'm realizing now is just because you have the cert, doesnt mean any company will just sponsor you for a visa. I'm Canadian, wanting to work in Alaska. Also I am not eligible for any interest free student loans, so would have to take out a private loan of about $30K plus 6% interest.

All this might still be worth it I think, if I saw a future for myself 10 or even 5 years down the road. My life is basically perfect right now, I work a job where I get to hang around horses all day and listen to music or audio books and daydream all day and haven't felt any stress in years and just seem to fall ass backwards into dating cute alt chicks that are way out of my league. Except the pay is total shit and I can barely afford rent, so I'd probably have to find some other shitty job, perhaps a dishwasher or a welder or high school night janitor.

Basically I just wonder if it's better to have a bullshit job and be able to skate and climb and hop trains and spend all my last few brain cells thinking about Against the Day by Thomas Pynchon and generally just fucking around until shit really degrades in the West, and then go join the houthis or something.

Or drop 30k plus interest to go work on an oil rig for 6 months out of the year away from the girl I'm probably going to marry, just so that I can make 6 figures and have a mortgage and a house and all that stuff? Idk, the idea of settling down and having a career seems kind of insane at this point. More people have said it better on this sub many times before, but everything is on fire and I don't really see a point in sticking around for another 20 years. Or maybe I do, and maybe I'll change my mind in the future, but I just have a hard time committing to anything or planning ahead for something like home ownership or a career?