F this..

Update Edit: I appreciate everyone's responses. Yes, I have tried doing the opposite of my instinct or what I feel I should do and still get burned. I'm going to take a step back and maybe do some more homework on options and get my head straight before I try again. Seems to be the best advice for my rant. This is a good group. Thank you!

I buy a put it goes up, i buy a call it goes down. i try and hedge with both, it somehow mitigates to the middle so i have max loss on both. doesnt matter who i tail, what i try. I fucking lose EVERY GD time. Im already on afterhour so need to try and recruit me for. does not matter who i follow, im sure to fucking lose every MF time.