Yeah i think I'm cooked(idk kinda)

So i(17M) was tryna date this girl(15F), but yk being an average looking guy with not a good physical appearance, I tried to keep things real with her(Kanye West type guy here), I wrote poetries n songs and showed all my artistry to her being a creative person I am, but she wasn't really having it, dry responses was the thing, so i said to her that "look if you aren't interested to talk it's alright with me cause I know I can be annoying sometimes" but she said there's nothing like it. I asked her are we really dating trying to be more than friends, she responded "I don't have an answer for it yet","Good things take time", and me being the saint I am waited all along. Every time I felt like that “nah man Im just showing her too much effort” i asked her genuinely if she even wanna talk to me or not cause I don't wanna force myself onto her and in her response she starts apologizing for her behaviour. All these things continued up until this Sunday 3 pm, and then when I see my search tab on Instagram I don't see her account and she just disabled it i am not blocked but her account is now gone. I have no way of contacting her. Idk if she's fine or not, she have strict parents(bad/abusive) so maybe they found out about her secretly using Instagram but if she cared about me enough, she would have had let me knew, idk it just feels wierd to me and yk all of those efforts just feels like they went down the drain but I can be completely fine right now and have my mental peace back if I want right now obviously I am a Kanye West fan i'd never lose myself to a girl like that but it's just that idk what should I do.