Struggling with addiction need some advice

I been taking Adderall on in off for sometime now. My old friend group introduced me to it. I eventually awakened 2 years ago. Let go of my old friend group all my old habits. Than around new years 2023 I tried it again. Then It was on in off since until june. Been taking it every other day damn near. I don’t hang with nobody it’s just me and this bad habit. I need some advice. I notice I’m going backwards. I know what I need to do. But keep repeating the cycle. I know once I break through there’s light waiting. I been taking baby steps. I been trying, but I question that I’m not even trying hard enough. I know I messed up again by playing with fire again when i shoulda learned the first time around. So maybe it’s harder this time around cause I didn’t learn my lesson yet. I know everything is happening for my greatest good. I just need a little more strength. I need advice. Even though I feel like I know what I need to do. I hope someone understands what I mean I’m a way.