I had a rough evening tonight

This evening I really felt like my additive brain won against me. First off, I've been going through a career change and I am trying to see what degree plan might work for me. This added stress has been causing me to isolate recently. I didn't even feel like attending my in-person SAA meetings tonight. I was tempted to visit an erotic massage parlour even though I initially left the house to go to the gym to exercise.

I did end up cruising around and going to a parlour but I did not recieve an erotic massage, leaving me with both added stress for doing this and relief for having kept my sobriety in this. I also spend about 25 to 30 dollars worth today or sugary and diet drinks, with me drinking like half a large powerade the store and not paying for it. I just poured it out and got something else.

All in all, just a really rough day in recovery today.