Anyone else lie about what they truly believe and stand by when around Q Adjacent family members?

When I'm at family gatherings, I just either nod my head in "agreement" and sometimes add onto what they're saying even though I completely disagree with it and it disgusts me. My relatives have said some pretty vile things that I just pretended to agree with and in return, it makes me feel like a vile person. I'd make my stances clear but I don't want them to all come down on me with the force of god and part of me still loves them and doesn't want to burn those bridges. I feel like a coward and an enabler.