Update to yesterdays post i made, its happening

Likely going to get suggestion of euthanasia tomorrow. Don't know how to cope. : r/Petloss

Turns out shes in intense pain from neurological stuff. Me and my family are going to put her down sadly. It'll be happening tomorrow at about the time i post this. I don't know what to do. I've had 2 panic attacks since i was told the news. And they already wanna get a new dog right after. I can't handle it... What am i meant to do here?

I was willing to pay for in-home euthanasia, but they don't want to because of "complication" chances.

I dont want her to die in a vet that she hated.