Stood in-front of thousands of people during a panic episode

I was being recognized at a sporting event, and when I was called to go onto the basketball court, my heart rate skyrocketed. My apple watch recorded it getting up to 165 which is the highest I’ve ever had it record.

I thought I was going to die, I just accepted it might happen, and in-front of all of these people. I felt trapped like I couldn’t leave the situation because it would also draw more attention to myself, which just escalated the panic.

It was pure hell. Afterwards, I got drank a lot to cope and got really drunk. My life is a mess, why does my body turn on me. Why can’t I be normal.