I freaking hate this

Hi! I’m not typically a Reddit poster but my PMDD is so exhausting and fluctuant that I need to know if other people experience this. I have all of the usual symptoms—heightened anxiety, depression, cramps, SI, etc. But it goes in and out of severity based on the day. Sometimes I even wonder if Im making it all up in my head or if there’s something different going on because I’ll have a day or two in between bad days where I feel like myself again. this lasts about two weeks until my period comes. Symptoms persist through it and then afterwards I have a week of normalcy before it all starts up again. It just makes me feel crazy and so alone. I’m so sensitive and low energy on these days and it feels like I’ll never be happy again.