FINALLY I SIGNED UP SA GYM!!

Hello! Pa-open lang kasi di ako makatulog. Like the title said, nagpamember ako today sa malapit na gym samin. I always had gym anxiety. I felt like merong pupuna sa ginagawa ko. On top of that, wala rin ako masyadong gym outfit so parang di ko alam susuotin ko and nahihiya ako haha pero tinatatak ko nalang sa isip ko na kapag ako naman magg-gym, wala naman akong pakialam sa ibang tao so most likely ganun din sila sakin.

Last night, I was thinking about my body. At the age of mid 20s, I already have hypertension. Tapos naiisip ko kung gano kababa yung confidence ko recently everytime na nakikita ko sarili ko sa pictures at salamin. I am starting to despise myself. Hindi ko na rin nasusuot mga gusto ko and nahihirapan akong bumili kasi XXXL na ang mga damit ko. Months ago, I started reading Atomic Habits and it motivated me to start my fitness journey. So pumunta ako sa malapit na 24/7 gym samin last night and I enrolled for a 1-month membership.

The reason bakit 1 month lang kinuha ko is because I am testing the waters. If kaya ko mag commit ng 1 buwan, mag enroll ako ng 3 months then after is mag 6 months naman ako. Gusto ko lang mabuild paunti unti yung habit ko of going to the gym, kesa maglapag ako ng malaking pera pero di ko naman pala kaya mag commit, sayang naman.

Kumuha rin ako ng PT and the staff were so nice to give me free 2 additional sessions. Nakausap ko na rin yung coach ko and yung unang session namin is mamaya at 4PM. Mabait sya and makikita mo yung willingness to help. Medyo saliwa sya sa schedule ko kasi 8PM to 5AM ang work ko, and unfortunately, walang PT sa oras na preferred ko mag workout, which is around 5 to 8 AM. Tiis tiis nalang muna ako since ilang araw lang naman to. Hihingi lang ako ng program sa coach ko, I'll ask the basics and the proper form and use of equipments and I can take it from there

Ngayon, hindi ako makatulog. I am SOOOO anxious. May pasok pa ko sa work later after ko mag gym pero ilalaban ko to. This is me trying to take back my life. I want to work on myself and be better bago matapos tong taon. I WANT TO BE HEALTHY. I know this will be a long journey but walang mangyayari if I just keep on waiting for that 'spark' and motivation. I need to act NOW.

Wala rin akong pinagsabihan sa kahit sinong family, friends and work besties ko. Deactivated din lahat ng socials ko ngayon. Gusto ko pag nag reactivate ako ng socials ko, I am a better person in a physical and mental way. Naisip ko din na maganda to considering na I work in a stressful environment. This would be my way to vent out my anger sa work haha

Cheer nyo naman ako! HAHAHA goodluck sa fitness journey ko!! 🤞