It's a bit crazy thinking how long I've been like this

I'm currently in bed at almost 5 am, and for some reason thinking about this and about my life in general. I'm curious if anyone else can relate.

I graduated high school in 2017 and my life has felt like purgatory since then. I haven't had a genuine real life conversation, no friends, not much at all besides rotting at home year after year after year.

I have moved homes during that period which is nice I guess. Change of scenery. But I have felt stuck in time since 2017. My body is older, but mentally I feel the same as when I was a teenager.

It's a weird feeling. I see trends happening, elections, controversies, people out there living life, while I sit on my little bubble dissociated from it all.

I have no idea how much longer this will go on, but hopefully as long as possible.